i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

working in classes,

hearing the school bell ring, 

lunch breaks..

dang.

the system has been broken.

=)

i think i'll miss high school hella much.

makes sense that my thought process rewinds to day one of being an international student...

walking in SSIS, claris talking like she's known me for ages.. that petite classroom with the little coat hangers... shawn... acting out mulan... justin...=) (the humiliation of a lifetime)... vivian..jade... sodexho lunches! haha

what else was there...

grade 4... mr. haime, the best days...the worst days... being bullied... shawn...soccer...badminton

grade 5.. =) ms. penrose! haha jane eyre... my passion for literature began. rayner enters... claris leaves and the nightmare seems to end... andy with his fly down =), ariel...vanna..frank.. pranks, passwords, great white sharks. rojak..rayner cries.. haijie and shawn.. 

grade 6... new building, myp program starts... history is amazing.. mayan rain gods.. i love biology.. mr. mcbride... badminton... rayner... shawn leaves... haijie =) i get a locker.. student council? mr. little.. geography's awesome... i want a newspaper club...

grade 7... cake making! ms. carlisle...take off all jewelry... newspaper check it out... baits...fishing trips.. student council... mr. house... amazing stories... i write essays... life of a pencil..vivian rivals...vivian leaves.. i discover im leaving..frank texts, frank msns... crush...tommy..basketball...insomnia...swimming..shawn is back...rayner goes swimming...volleyball...basifang ice cream in the jacuzzi... rayner moves on... dances at camp....sihui..wanling...fights....foozball...i throw a golf ball...we dont speak...shawn remembers...joel likes me...rejection...the garden is up... art class..mr. davies... i graduate...i cry.

grade 8: POT keeps me alive...cards keep me going...give me strength...step...classroom...anne...justin....ada...karyu...mr. mclaughlin...ddays...fartax...kate?...kate!...mikaela...kate....mikaela...kate...kate...kate...yj..rita...johnny...anime...greg...greg...kate and karyu?...kate and jeremy...?...kate is leaving...its been a year...suzhou...shawn remembers...i want to cry...i dont want to go back.

grade 9: kate...kristine? kristine...karyu...karyu? kate?.... raymer..advanced math...tupps...romeo and juliet...essays...friesen..the pearl...the old man and the sea... longer essays... science award??? lol. jmac...i make the same mistake for the last time...

grade 10: GID...india...jeremy...jeremy...jeremy...trio...ada..wayne..karyu..kristine...... ...kate... wyrdolmao...karyu's...movies...rayner?? rayner...=) the past repeats...im glad..glad..glad.. science 10...he says it...i do a flip on the couch...hi jeremy...^^ its nice to see you.. core...you stayed to talk... kate..? i didnt mean to...why didnt you listen...you said it was ok... dont do this...im sorry.. i'll let go... you dont understand..greg stay out of it...passing judgment...i've lost faith in you... never the same again... emails?... no more emails.... rejection...rejection... rejection... dont go..please...

grade 11: trio.....two....one... yj? hi yejin...its been a while... i dont know.. they've gone... its just me. lunch? ok... hi chany...hi cherry..hi anne...hi rie... english 20...ms lau? math..almost over... jeremy... =) GID...core... AP...english A30.. =) ngo...david...josiah...rykiel...brett...physics 20...jeremy =) summer! thai camp... 6:30.. T.T

grade 12: ... i dont quite know what to say now that i've reached this point in time. this year has held so much... im glad its over though... its been a long long journey..and im ready for a long  break. 

haha, anyway...the li brothers are constantly derailing my thought process... so i will end this chapter for now.

and maybe, sometime soon i'll finish up what's left undone.