i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

however, lucky for me, i had taken a trip to page one last friday and decided to start building

a book list "wants", so i took photos of books i wanted.

and i conveniently passed the camera to my sister today.

my family came back,

and i have 5 new books,

4 of which i requested via camera,

and the other verbally.

however, this makes my task of choosing books to bring with me to toronto a LOT harder.

Emma - Jane Austen

Mansfield Park - Jane Austen

Girl with a Pearl Earring - Tracy Chevalier (good. i finished this just now)

The Alchemist - Paulo Coelho

Life of Pi - Yann Martel

anyway,

today long lost danny talked to me,

and surprise, i'll be seeing him friday.

haha its strange how people can remember you even after so long.

shulamite left today,

along with rayner, going home for NS checkup.

im glad you spent your last hours here *sob* talking to me,

even if the topic was far from pleasant.

jiayou ah =)

i'll see you, along with everyone else, next summer.

summer's going fast..

for me at least,

leaving next saturday..

leaving this life behind forever,

throwing myself into being a university student.

it hit me today as i was filling out registrations for frosh week, that i have yet to hand in..

being left for orientation to find my way around sounds intimidating...

and i am intimidated, not so much by the fact that i'll be meeting new people,

but by the fact that when i get back to my room,

it won't be home.

funny how the word home serves dually as family attachment,

but even more so the world i've been dreaming in...

reminds me of the last time home ceased to exist..for a few short months.

only now,

home won't be constant for five years..

the same amount of time it took for me to rebuild home.

5 years seem so long, yet so short.

5 years i was in china

and 5 years i was in hk.

now 5 years i'll be in toronto.

and after that who knows what God has planned,

where the road to him leads to...

who will walk beside me

who will hold my hand..

=)

speculation is worthless, but necessary nonetheless.

it pushes us onward, to strive for better..

because all we are sure of, is that we are unsure...

and so it becomes a need, to do everything in power...

to paint a more beautiful tomorrow.

even if just to fool ourselves for another minute.

that sounds depressing,

haha,

maybe it is,

but true. =)

anyway,

after course enrolment today..

i feel like the course of things are set.

i have a definite future and goal i am walking toward..

definite times and places to be.

its true they say,

that university is so busy, yet so free..

i wonder who im talking to in this blog,

the only indication i get that someone actually reads this is when kristine comments..

and im sure she's not that interested in my musings...

hmm...

i will reflect upon this extremely...important...question tonight. =)