i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

childishness put aside much quicker.

pettiness left in the corner.

don't you think so too my dearest?

my pride is less eager

my mouth less keen

my heart less tender

but not without

the precious empathy

that defines a man from a boy.

and a woman from a girl.

last night i went to bed

with joy

but emptiness on that chair

but today

there is renewed hope

and your presence sits there.

enthroned in my heart.

arise.

what can i say or do.

to make these gnawing doubts go away

nothing except speak of your love for me

for that is what reminds me above all

that You are true

and You are real

and You hold me together

when nothing else makes sense.

thus nothing else matters.

my prayer today,

is ambiguous as it was yesterday.

show me God.

reveal.

help me believe...

but today the same words i speak with with conviction.

show me God.

reveal.

help me believe.

for there is nothing higher,

no one more worthy

and when the things of everyday swamp me

and blind me

rob me of your glory.

i will know

that every step i take

is to eternity

in your presence and your love.

and though today i know little

and wisdom is still buried in that pandora's box

my hopes take flight

past words on a page

past history made obscure by time

into your presence made real

in my life.

into your peace flushing my pain

in that chapel so long ago.

in your love as you made me cry

for another heart to look to you.

i won't forget.

how could i?

how will i?

i refuse.

and thus defy.

all the world claims it to be.

have faith

faith is everything.