i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

church.

good music.

amazing people.

bum at new college.

dinner.

soupkitchen.

redroom.

home.

this week took extra effort to get through.

my focus is at an incredible low.

all i really need at this point is a long plane flight home.

a good novel,

some HKD8 icecream

and Fuji.

also up for some kdrama X).

the gap in my heart has widened,

the threads that i've woven thus far

are fraying under pressure

and they'll break.

i know they will... if i don't supplement them with something stronger too.

i feel like God is tearing me down,

down down down so that He can rebuild me.

every day is my struggle.

every day is my burden.

every day is my battle.

and i'm looking for something,

for that one thing..

im laying my soul bare here...

will you respond?

or will you smile back and turn away..

so much i need,

and yet God tells me over and over

I am enough.

i don't know...

how to accept that.

with nothing..

what do i do.

if words could fall like rain

from these lips of mine

and if i had a thousand years

i'd still run out of time

so if you listen to my heart

every beat will say

thankyou for the Life

thankyou for the Truth

thankyou for the Way