i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

my farewell to 09 will commence tonight.

and 09 deserves a special goodbye,

for being a milestone, and the janus of a hundred different things.

i've been using the word janus for the last few posts,

so i'll tell his story first.

janus is the roman numen (protective spirit) of the doorway

where he simultaneously looks back and looks forward

because he is two-headed.

janus is the origin for january.

so at this moment,

janus looms on my mind

as a beautiful idea.

to celebrate the past and embrace the future

at the same time.

what other way is better

to start out the new year?

2009 milestones:

jeremy and i hit 2 years... (we're approaching three right now)

i broke my prayer nonchalance.

i graduated from highschool.

yj got a pretty english name (LOL)

i went to university.

i turned 18.

and there are countless in-betweens.

each milestone only hovers over more

shrouded in time, shrouded in memory

but the steps were taken

and the footprints etched.

my journey is set,

the path lies imprinted.

my resolutions for 10

were stated before:

to be more beautiful, to be more grace

to be more love, to be more faith.

to be more wisdom, to be more will

to be more courage, to be more still.

to be more hope, to be more way

i want to be more than my yesterdays.

my trip home to hk has restored all of what i hold most dear.

the faces and the places

are home.

undoubtedly this is where i belong.

with renewed strength i will recross the waters

and throw myself into second semester with determination.

but summer calls sweet

and i can't wait.

but with the next waterstop in sight,

my marathon continues,

and the passing of a year

only proves my strength has not yet dissipated

and God is ever good.

i can see my imperfections

like potholes in the street.

but grace is filling them in,

though the colors leave marks

and life is ever beautiful.