i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

identical words.

i feel like closing my eyes

and falling...

just falling and falling...

i wouldn't want to fall forever.

but a long while would be nice.

strength is a mask.

so is a smile.

isolation is so vast

and so beyond perception.

ice in the heart.

what exactly am i looking for?

i don't quite know.

independence is not always a blessing.

i understand the allure of sending your deepest secret to strangers.

there's comfort in understanding with no judgment, no interference.

i understand.

so i won't intervene.

as pertaining to you.

but when i become subject.

i need to express.

turn away from my glaring

flaw.

retain my dignity.

salvage my sensitivity.

restore my transparency.

oh God..God just save me.

the wind seems to understand

she caresses my cheek

in comfort.

in wisdom.

its alright...the world is too big.

too big...

your desire is far overshadowed.

eclipsed by the greatness of time.

a ripple..

only a ripple..

but this will count.

only 84600 seconds in a day.

how many days...

everything must count.

grow up.

please.

its been too long, stagnant for too long.

if you don't move forward, time will clench

and you expire.

from greatness.

from growth.

from existence.

beauty in the broken.

unless the broken in you.

then all you see is ugly

by contrast.

there's someone i've been missing

im thinking it could be

the better half of me.

at the wrong place to try to make a right

and im tired of justifying..

there's a war between the vanities

but all i see is you and me

the fight for you is all i've ever known.

i get lost in the beauty

of everything i see

the world ain't half as bad

as they paint it to be.

everything i can be

is everything you should be

and thats why i need you here.

or maybe i'm just dreaming out loud.

but until then,

come home.