i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

and that people who blog are egotistical and self-indulgent, looking for a reason to attract attention and blah blah blah.

i was not offended, but it did get me thinking to why i blog.

and the answer is because i want to.

i disagree politely with everything this individual says about bloggers,

not just because i am one,

but also because i feel like people who have such opinions about neutral, harmless tasks are looking for something to have an opinion on, because having opinions makes them feel smarter. not that having opinions is a bad thing, but using them as a marker for intelligence is (pardon the paradox) remarkably dumb.

but back to why i blog,

i don't actually know.

maybe if i blog long enough,

i'll figure the answer out. =)

either way,

its a great way to talk about what you want to talk about,

in a public space,

anything that's posted is at risk of being discovered by others,

but its also an excellent way to stay connected with friends who care to keep up with your life.

back in hk for almost a week.

and i wonder why i left.

besides getting to spend time with my awesomesauce family again,

im back in touch with irreplaceable people in my life.

8 months in Toronto has reminded me of how long it takes

to make friends that are worth keeping.

and im thankful, and blessed to have such people in my life.

im settling into the groove of things,

and life is stamping earth into footprints

like kaidoh's daily running regime.

(haha childhood reference)

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and my demons are at rest,

wrestled into silence for the present.

life is never-ending rounds,

but the timeouts are glorious.

new desires take root and unfurl green buds

and im waiting,

for God to bring me my sunshine.

he knows my sunshine,

he loves my sunshine,

and he will, in his own time,

rise him up and the rays will pierce

through darkness,

and green buds will take flight.

seek ye first the kingdom of God.

i try every day, with failures and setbacks,

but nevertheless.

i seek.

thus i shall find.