i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

busy busy schedule this week:

monday: work + paultsang

tuesday: work + kristine and cow

wednesday: work + kristine, yj, chantelle

thursday: work + nick

friday: work + kristine, yj, chantelle, nick, cow, shulamite

awesome people, awesome time, awesome eating.

settling down into a hundrum of summer life post-highschool,

i get a sweet nostalgia unaccompanied by envy or a desire to go back.

i am glad that the highschool chapter has..in chinese the saying goes 畫下了句點 - ended with a period.

i have no desire to go back, they remain sweet memories, bitter memories, happy and sad memories.

memories they are nevertheless, and i will not try hard to forget them, for each of them are part of the me that i am today and the me that i strive to be tomorrow.

all my results are out.

i missed with one B-, but otherwise all B+ to As.

unfortunately my GPA is nowhere close to a 4.0,

but a 3.4 to start off my university career is not too bad, and i trust that with time, with discipline and practice i'll be able to up my standards.

as for now however,

i will cast university aside and enjoy a summer that's really, only just beginning.

to see friends i haven't seen in months, to laugh at things we used to laugh at and eat under a polluted night sky..

to shop, eat, walk, smack, joke together is to love and be loved.

truly.

life at home is wonderful too.

family is irreplaceable.

good food, good fun, good couches, good music, good dog.

i am much blessed.

life today is nonchalant,

and blissfully so.

but i walk still, one step at a time, forward.

and occasionally i think about you.

the streets echo of us.

from time to time my eyes get salty,

but they rarely overflow.

no my crying days are behind me,

i won't cave in,

not with so much love.

recall is sweeter than before.

for here i am,

sleeping on a mattress, between a bunk bed and a desk,

the whirr of a fan so familiar, so precious, so relaxed.

an old teddy bear, a sweetest love, accompanying me at night.

a world outside the window, just waiting to be seen.

and precious time is ticking,

so i won't waste it crying,

for love is so much bigger,

than just a memory.

You hold me in your hands.

so i'll run,

outward, beyond

and let the city lights greet me like never before

this summer of 2010.