i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

thinking back is almost wondrous because i've been detailing my life in public domain for over 5 years now.

and yet, my privacy is as well kept as it was before.

anyway,

today i had planned a vagabond date with jeremy to walk around,

and eat a packed lunch.

but it rained. =(

so we bus-ed to ma on shan plaza and roamed

and watched Sex in the City 2 (jeremy picked it)

next time, im picking the movies.

twas good fun, we had equal or better fun than any sort of legitimate date would bring.

to me summer has always been one of those transforming periods,

every year summer moves me in some direction, contrary to the direction i've been moving in all year.

most of the time, in a better direction.

and i have a vague idea of what this summer might have in store for me,

but im way way way open to refining,

and i hope that come august,

i fly back a better, refreshed and stronger girl.

but really, this post is to the beloved.

i sincerely hope you guys know who you are.

to those who have watched me find the use of my legs. and then my wings, and then first flights, and not only watched, but who have jumped branches with me, who've preened feathers with me, who've peered over the nest and commented on the long fall down with me.

my analogy is running a little long, but you get the idea.

i love you more than words can say.

all in different ways,

in different walks,

in different times.

for being honest with me,

for listening when i needed an ear,

for being there at my best moments,

and holding my hand in my worst,

for telling me this is right

and this is not.

for sticking up for me even when i don't deserve it.

for late night talks, and long afternoon coffee chats.

for food fests and sleepovers,

shopping sprees and karaoke.

what would i do without you.

you guys are as much a part of me as my faith and my family.

this post is for you.

all of you.