i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

it makes me feel as though i cheated fate out of the opportunity to screw me up.

but then i realize that,

its only because God holds me in the palm of his hand,

and shields me...

that i don't feel hopeless,

and i don't fall all the way to the bottom.

ignite camp added a book to my base again.

i love it when i don't get spiritual highs,

but instead feel the steady love of Jesus Christ weave its way through every single event in my life.

camp really tuned up my sensitivity to the differences God makes in the world.

=)

this week marks the first of my last two weeks of summer before i start work again, and then head home to singapore/malaysia.

summer's running right by me.

soon it'll be time to head back to Toronto for a second year of hard work,

in some ways i really can't wait to go back and start another year of classes,

studying at university is really a blessing for me.

but i really am going to miss the people here, =(

my family, my friends and the life that hk is.

Toronto's amazing to study in, but i'll never want to live there.

i love Asia for all that it is.

for its people,

its noise,

its culture,

its food,

its cities,

its congestion,

its busy lifestyle.

its always more fascinating to live slow in a city that lives fast,

than to be slow in a city that is slow.

a city that changes with its times, that extends all over and snakes like a living thing,

damn i get excited thinking about it.

the rest of the world is amazing to explore,

but somehow i never have the desires to be free and live far away from everything i've known.

maybe thats my gift from God, my blessing.

that i was born where i was supposed to be.

and i'll die defending the places i've grown up and lived.

i see myself in retrospect now.

as always, when we move on, we must always look back to wonder,

so that we can learn from our footprints how to continue to walk into the future.

and i always think i've come this far,

but i know i can go further.

so i'll keep trying,

truth be told,

i can't tell you where i'll end up.

and i can't account for all my mistakes,

but at least know that my heart is desperate for good things to happen.

and that every today, i am a slightly better person than i was yesterday.