i hope my words are strange and wondrous,

like kisses that quiet all things superfluous,

so that we can all stop and

listen

mostly because i have an exam at 9AM today and wanted to wake up to do some review.

however,

at 4:30AM i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep.

so i gave up trying to sleep at 6:20AM...

and here i am!

thinking about too many things,

the future seems quite blurry and unclear at the moment,

as of now my sole wish is to focus and finish this three hour exam quick.

then i'll really sit down and think certain things through.

if only i knew what the right thing was to do.

and if only the right thing to do wasn't so hard.

so im leaving my heart here on this blog for the next few hours,

to pick up later.

because right now all i need is my brain, to focus on the exam.

and for my hand, to not cramp up from the essays.

im leaving my heart here,

because maybe you will see it,

from wherever you are.

and maybe you'll know that i am talking to you.

and maybe you'll know that you, and your words

have been driving me completely crazy.

but what does that mean?