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is the inversion
of
wishful thinking
to
thoughtful wishes.
wishful thinking
is trying to erase the past,
or justify it to make myself feel comfortable again.
it is wanting to believe that i
am above the trivial mistakes and misjudgments
that often inflict us in life.
it is wanting to wallow in
a puddle of self-pity and imagine that
some fairytale media sensation story will fall into my lap.
no.
with every fibre of my being,
i am consciously saying
no.
i am walking on the ridge of scars
toward a wiser tomorrow.
i am falling so that in my failures
there is a deeper strength.
i am not depending on that which
is neither permanent nor perfect.
there is more in me than i ever envisioned,
and until the full picture unfolds,
i will wish for strength, for comfort, for courage, for wisdom, for grace, for love.
i will make thoughtful wishes,
and turn them into fervent prayers.
push my heart into my knees that
one day,
one day...
from the inside out
done.
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